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Dear Mom, I love you. - Love, Me
Jun. 10th, 2006 07:24 pmWow... I have fallen behind on updating... let's see if I can update in order...
Outline
1. Nothing big was happening.
2. My friend Hallie invited me to Bardstown to stay with her aunt for a weekend. Loads of fun.
3. Bought tons of new manga.
4. Major fight/heart to heart with my mom.
Details
1. As you already know my life is extremly boring. Nothing hardly ever happens. That's the way things go. I could really use a boyfriend to bring some drama into the mix.
2. One friend that has really stuck with me since graduation is my friend Hallie, she's crazy but always fun. Last weekend she invited me to go to Bardstown to her aunt's because it would be really lonely without anyone with her. Her aunt was more than happy to have me so she talked to my mom and it was settled. We set out on Friday about 2 pm. Went to Books A Million, I bought Gravitation the Novel. We then went to B&N and I got volumes 1 & 2 of Loveless and volume 1 of FAKE. It was plently of reading for the weekend. On Friday night we just chilled and then on Saturday we had a cookout with some of Hallie's aunt's friends, after everyone had left and everything was clean we went and rented Brokeback Mountain and Hostile. We watched Brokeback but Hallie and I went to bed before Hostile, well... sort of... we stayed up talking until 3am. On Sunday we headed home.
3. On Wen. Hallie called to see if I wanted to go to BAM and B&N with her again. I'm always up for books so I stopped by April's to see if April wanted to go but she wasn't there so I kidnapped Sara instead. Oh my God, it rained so hard on us as we got off the interstate and then going inside to BAM. Afterward we went to B&N. All in all I totally expanded my manga collection. Gravitation: The Novel, Gravitation V.1, Sorcerer Hunters V.1&2, FAKE V.1&2, Loveless V.1&2, Earthian V2&3, La Esperanca: A Manga Novel, and last but not least, Here Is Greenwood V4&5.
4. This week was really messed up, I have no idea where Tuesday went. I got up on Friday thinking it was Thursday. -shrugs-. Anyway, so I got up, got ready and went upstairs. Mom had brought home Papa Johns the night before and I had a couple of pieces left for my breakfast. I heated them up, poured me a cup of lemonade and then sat on the couch to eat and talk to mom, since she has Friday's off. This was something I really enjoyed when at college cause my only class on Friday's spring semester was English at 12pm. So I would usually get up and get ready then I would call mom and we would talk about anything and everything for about 45 minutes. We have never been best friends like some daughters and mothers, but let me say something right now to clear things up. I LIKE IT THAT WAY. I DO NOT Want a best friend/parent yet. I want a parent.
Well mom said she had something serious to talk about with me. I looked at her and she started. Summed up she said that I was treating her and my dad like a hotel. Coming home late, only eating and sleeping here. Maybe giving them a kiss when I came in. This is halfway true, I do only eat and sleep here. I'm still 18, I have this way of thinking that I'm not posed to talk to my parents, don't ask me why. Another thing that is mom made my curfew 10pm on nights that I work, I respect that and for the first week walked in right at 10pm, but since then I average about 8/8:30pm. I don't consider that late. However, I do just grab food and go downstairs after kissing my parents goodnight.
She then told me that since I liked to spend so much time at April's that I could just move down there. She expected me moved out by this weekend. That was when I broke down/lost it. "I'M NOT DOING IT!" That was my reply. As much as I love my friend's and going to April's... it's dirty. Not through any fault of April's or Andrew's...well maybe a little. But it's mainly the people that stay there. Josh and Shadae, plus their almost one year old Christian, they have so much crap and it's everywhere! There's no way to clean properly around it. Everyone else who stays there, Sara, Nate and Ben, as much as I love them, all say that they want jobs and stuff, but each night they stay up until 3am or 6am or whenever and then sleep all day. I've told them about jobs their hiring for up at Cooks where I work but each day when I stop by there after work their either sleeping or sitting at the computer. I'm sorry but they will not get jobs that way.
By the end Mom was crying and I was crying, I had long since set my pizza on the counter and poured my lemondae out. Screw eating when you're that upset. We were holding each other on the couch, crying together and mom kept telling me to not be upset, I just replied "To late for that". After we had pretty much stopped crying and had come to some sort of terms, I'll spend more time with her and dad when I get in at night, I went to work. I was still crying when I called Hallie and got her voicemail. I left her a message telling her what had happened and that I could really use someone to talk to, so to call or text me when she got this. She called me right back when she got my message and told me to stop by her house before I went to work. So I did and we talked, she listened, commented and joked, which made me feel tons better.
I made it to work about 12:15 and stayed until 4:15 then went to my Gran's cause my cousins were in from St.Louis but were going back the next day so I wanted to see them again before they left. After there I went to April's.
Mom had said she would be the topic of choice that afternoon there but she was wrong, I never once brought it up. But I was really quiet so I think April knew something was wrong. I kept pressing my cold can of pepsi to my eyes cause they were still sore from crying so much that morning. I left about 9pm, April came out of her parents where she was helping her dad do something.
"Don't even think about leaving without saying goodbye," she said.
"I was posed to be home ten minutes ago. I totally lost track of the time," I replied.
"Oh ok hun... well if you need anything, you know my number and where I live. If you can't come and need me I can get to you, I do have a car!" She said. I just smiled.
"Thanks, I'll be sure to keep that in mind," I replied.
That was how I knew she knew something was wrong.
But yeah... there's an update... let the firing sqad or whatever shoot now.
Outline
1. Nothing big was happening.
2. My friend Hallie invited me to Bardstown to stay with her aunt for a weekend. Loads of fun.
3. Bought tons of new manga.
4. Major fight/heart to heart with my mom.
Details
1. As you already know my life is extremly boring. Nothing hardly ever happens. That's the way things go. I could really use a boyfriend to bring some drama into the mix.
2. One friend that has really stuck with me since graduation is my friend Hallie, she's crazy but always fun. Last weekend she invited me to go to Bardstown to her aunt's because it would be really lonely without anyone with her. Her aunt was more than happy to have me so she talked to my mom and it was settled. We set out on Friday about 2 pm. Went to Books A Million, I bought Gravitation the Novel. We then went to B&N and I got volumes 1 & 2 of Loveless and volume 1 of FAKE. It was plently of reading for the weekend. On Friday night we just chilled and then on Saturday we had a cookout with some of Hallie's aunt's friends, after everyone had left and everything was clean we went and rented Brokeback Mountain and Hostile. We watched Brokeback but Hallie and I went to bed before Hostile, well... sort of... we stayed up talking until 3am. On Sunday we headed home.
3. On Wen. Hallie called to see if I wanted to go to BAM and B&N with her again. I'm always up for books so I stopped by April's to see if April wanted to go but she wasn't there so I kidnapped Sara instead. Oh my God, it rained so hard on us as we got off the interstate and then going inside to BAM. Afterward we went to B&N. All in all I totally expanded my manga collection. Gravitation: The Novel, Gravitation V.1, Sorcerer Hunters V.1&2, FAKE V.1&2, Loveless V.1&2, Earthian V2&3, La Esperanca: A Manga Novel, and last but not least, Here Is Greenwood V4&5.
4. This week was really messed up, I have no idea where Tuesday went. I got up on Friday thinking it was Thursday. -shrugs-. Anyway, so I got up, got ready and went upstairs. Mom had brought home Papa Johns the night before and I had a couple of pieces left for my breakfast. I heated them up, poured me a cup of lemonade and then sat on the couch to eat and talk to mom, since she has Friday's off. This was something I really enjoyed when at college cause my only class on Friday's spring semester was English at 12pm. So I would usually get up and get ready then I would call mom and we would talk about anything and everything for about 45 minutes. We have never been best friends like some daughters and mothers, but let me say something right now to clear things up. I LIKE IT THAT WAY. I DO NOT Want a best friend/parent yet. I want a parent.
Well mom said she had something serious to talk about with me. I looked at her and she started. Summed up she said that I was treating her and my dad like a hotel. Coming home late, only eating and sleeping here. Maybe giving them a kiss when I came in. This is halfway true, I do only eat and sleep here. I'm still 18, I have this way of thinking that I'm not posed to talk to my parents, don't ask me why. Another thing that is mom made my curfew 10pm on nights that I work, I respect that and for the first week walked in right at 10pm, but since then I average about 8/8:30pm. I don't consider that late. However, I do just grab food and go downstairs after kissing my parents goodnight.
She then told me that since I liked to spend so much time at April's that I could just move down there. She expected me moved out by this weekend. That was when I broke down/lost it. "I'M NOT DOING IT!" That was my reply. As much as I love my friend's and going to April's... it's dirty. Not through any fault of April's or Andrew's...well maybe a little. But it's mainly the people that stay there. Josh and Shadae, plus their almost one year old Christian, they have so much crap and it's everywhere! There's no way to clean properly around it. Everyone else who stays there, Sara, Nate and Ben, as much as I love them, all say that they want jobs and stuff, but each night they stay up until 3am or 6am or whenever and then sleep all day. I've told them about jobs their hiring for up at Cooks where I work but each day when I stop by there after work their either sleeping or sitting at the computer. I'm sorry but they will not get jobs that way.
By the end Mom was crying and I was crying, I had long since set my pizza on the counter and poured my lemondae out. Screw eating when you're that upset. We were holding each other on the couch, crying together and mom kept telling me to not be upset, I just replied "To late for that". After we had pretty much stopped crying and had come to some sort of terms, I'll spend more time with her and dad when I get in at night, I went to work. I was still crying when I called Hallie and got her voicemail. I left her a message telling her what had happened and that I could really use someone to talk to, so to call or text me when she got this. She called me right back when she got my message and told me to stop by her house before I went to work. So I did and we talked, she listened, commented and joked, which made me feel tons better.
I made it to work about 12:15 and stayed until 4:15 then went to my Gran's cause my cousins were in from St.Louis but were going back the next day so I wanted to see them again before they left. After there I went to April's.
Mom had said she would be the topic of choice that afternoon there but she was wrong, I never once brought it up. But I was really quiet so I think April knew something was wrong. I kept pressing my cold can of pepsi to my eyes cause they were still sore from crying so much that morning. I left about 9pm, April came out of her parents where she was helping her dad do something.
"Don't even think about leaving without saying goodbye," she said.
"I was posed to be home ten minutes ago. I totally lost track of the time," I replied.
"Oh ok hun... well if you need anything, you know my number and where I live. If you can't come and need me I can get to you, I do have a car!" She said. I just smiled.
"Thanks, I'll be sure to keep that in mind," I replied.
That was how I knew she knew something was wrong.
But yeah... there's an update... let the firing sqad or whatever shoot now.
