Sometime unexplained things happen

Woot! Finally an entry that has nothing...er... well almost nothing to do with that stupid surgery or my mom. I'll go on and get the basics done with.

Last night I was allowed to stay out until 12am so I went to April's, we wrote and joked and had a great time. Lisa, Jon, Sara and Nate were there and we were all talking about when we got married and our bachlorette/bacholar parties. Lisa has asked me to be a brides maid at her and Jon's wedding, he hasn't proposed yet but that's what their planning. I'm really excited. I haven't been in a wedding since I was little and I was a flower girl then. Lisa had just not better make me wear an ugly dress. ^_~

Either Sara or Lisa said something about how the bachlorette party is planned by the maid of honor and the mother of the bride. My face just paled and I said, "Oh God..." They all looked at me and I looked at April and said, "April and my mom!"

We all about died, it is a well known fact that they do not get along well, but tolerate each other.

Lisa said that my party will have two sides with tape down the middle. My mom's side will be done in pink and cute little heart boxes and such and April's side will have anime and a stripper. Hehehe... sorry mom but there's no question as to which side I'll be on.

Okay getting back on track... with mom bugging me about this surgery and stuff I have been really stressed and confused. So I asked April to give me a Tarot reading, I have my own cards but I trust April. So we sat in the middle of the floor and she spread her cards out and told me to choose ten while thinking about my question.

My question was, "How would my life change if I had this surgery?"

The first two cards had to do with love and discovering my sensuality. After that up until card 7 had to do with creativity. But then card 7 gave me the answer I really wanted to hear. Card 7 told me there would be trouble, that there were past fears, which is true.

My cousin had the gystic bypass done and she died. There's that fear and then the fear of going through what my mom has.

The last few cards told me to be strong and have courage, that I would make the right decision.

I looked at Lisa and said, "Okay so my question was, How would my life change if I had this surgery. Basically, I would become a whore and I would die." We all started laughing but then April told me the truth. There would be trouble if I had this surgery but the good news is I won't because well... I don't want to do it and the cards said I would make the right decision.

The even better news? According to the cards within the next six months or year I would be in love.

Now on to this morning...

Ghosts. Some people believe in them, some don't. I do. My great grandma has watched over me since she died about seven years ago. But that is all she has ever done.

It was probably about 10am and I was still snooz'n really good when I slightly woke up. The snooze light on my alarm clock was flashing, fading, flashing, fading. It did that at school too, we just always blamed it on the ghost. I said, "Stop it... I'm sleep'n..." Right after I said that this great cold breeze blew over me and my bed viberated for like 20 seconds. I was thinking my fan had fallen over but when I looked it was just fine.

Aside from the bed viberating the wind thing has happened before when my door to the outside blew open before but it didn't this time cause it's fixed and locked with the deadbolt now.

I lay there trying to go back to sleep but couldn't. I can't think of who would do that, my mama has never bothered me, just stood at the end of my bed watching over me. But lately there's been someone else. A skinny woman, I have no idea who she is.

I wanna go back to sleep... but I can't... grrr...