Drabble: Gone Too Soon
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elvenavariFandom: Twilight
Pairing: Jasper/Seth
Prompt: Gone Too Soon – Daughtry
Jasper put his truck in park, letting the engine idle as he sat and stared out at the trees. Normally he would have driven his Mustang, he was more comfortable in it, but only coming out to this place once a year he didn’t know what the road would be like. Turning the key off he picked up the small bouquet of Forget Me Nots and climbed out of the truck. He took a deep, unneeded, breath after closing the door, letting the sounds of the forest calm him.
Thirty-five years ago he and Seth had come here to bury something very important to them both. Their family had offered to come with them but this was something they needed to do on their own. Seth had carried the wooden cross with the name Akela burned into the wood tightly in his hand; a shovel was in his other hand. Jasper had followed close behind him, his own burden heavier in the wooden box. A week before they had lost their first baby… he was a stillborn, didn’t even take one breath. The loss he and Seth had felt was…indescribable. Carlisle and the others had offered to take care of burying the baby but… this was something he and Seth needed to do…to say goodbye to their baby that was gone too soon.
After that first year Seth had refused to come back. They had tried so hard, for so long…only to lose him. Since then there had been a lot more trying and, blessedly, three healthy babies. But the pain of losing that first one was still as fresh as if it were yesterday. But Jasper couldn’t stand the thought of his baby being in Heaven or wherever and thinking his daddies had forgotten about him.
So he came back each year, with flowers, to tell Akela about his brother and sisters. As he entered the clearing he saw that the grass had been recently cut and another rose bush planted. ‘Alice,’ he thought with a small smile. Approaching the cross slowly, Jasper wished once more that he could cry. Even though they had never gotten to know this baby he had loved him deeply. He missed what his baby could have been…
‘Who would you have looked like Ke? You had Seth’s nose…but my chin, would that have changed as you grew? Would you laugh like your brother Luka? Or maybe you would be quiet and serious like your sister Aylen… would you love to read like Lizzie?’
Jasper lay the Forget Me Nots on the grave before resting his hand on the ground as he kneeled. “We love you Ke, don’t ever think differently, we wish every day that you hadn’t gone so soon.”
Pairing: Jasper/Seth
Prompt: Gone Too Soon – Daughtry
Jasper put his truck in park, letting the engine idle as he sat and stared out at the trees. Normally he would have driven his Mustang, he was more comfortable in it, but only coming out to this place once a year he didn’t know what the road would be like. Turning the key off he picked up the small bouquet of Forget Me Nots and climbed out of the truck. He took a deep, unneeded, breath after closing the door, letting the sounds of the forest calm him.
Thirty-five years ago he and Seth had come here to bury something very important to them both. Their family had offered to come with them but this was something they needed to do on their own. Seth had carried the wooden cross with the name Akela burned into the wood tightly in his hand; a shovel was in his other hand. Jasper had followed close behind him, his own burden heavier in the wooden box. A week before they had lost their first baby… he was a stillborn, didn’t even take one breath. The loss he and Seth had felt was…indescribable. Carlisle and the others had offered to take care of burying the baby but… this was something he and Seth needed to do…to say goodbye to their baby that was gone too soon.
After that first year Seth had refused to come back. They had tried so hard, for so long…only to lose him. Since then there had been a lot more trying and, blessedly, three healthy babies. But the pain of losing that first one was still as fresh as if it were yesterday. But Jasper couldn’t stand the thought of his baby being in Heaven or wherever and thinking his daddies had forgotten about him.
So he came back each year, with flowers, to tell Akela about his brother and sisters. As he entered the clearing he saw that the grass had been recently cut and another rose bush planted. ‘Alice,’ he thought with a small smile. Approaching the cross slowly, Jasper wished once more that he could cry. Even though they had never gotten to know this baby he had loved him deeply. He missed what his baby could have been…
‘Who would you have looked like Ke? You had Seth’s nose…but my chin, would that have changed as you grew? Would you laugh like your brother Luka? Or maybe you would be quiet and serious like your sister Aylen… would you love to read like Lizzie?’
Jasper lay the Forget Me Nots on the grave before resting his hand on the ground as he kneeled. “We love you Ke, don’t ever think differently, we wish every day that you hadn’t gone so soon.”
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Date: 2012-10-09 10:07 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2012-10-15 01:02 am (UTC)I am so sorry for what you are going through Avari! I hope everything works out for you. May the good Lord guide and keep you and your family.
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Date: 2012-10-15 02:40 am (UTC)Thank you. Someone asked me recently how we were doing and I said, "Slowly but surely getting back to normal." They gave me a funny look and asked, "After all this would you even know what normal feels like?"
It was a good question.